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you look so tired-unhappy, bring down the government

  • Nov. 12th, 2006 at 9:03 PM
lion, ivoted, me, sadie
I hate my roommate. I hate my job. I hate that my dad has incurable cancer. I hate that I'm fat. I hate that I don't have any money right now. I hate that I do not ever think I'll have a boyfriend, let alone be in love. I hate that I'm breaking out and I can't figure out why. I hate that this year has been so hard. I hate that it REFUSES TO STOP. I hate that I had to be at work for eight hours today. I hate that I got NOTHING done this weekend. I hate that. . .I'm too exhausted to list anything else.

Oh god, yeah, i didn't get to unclog my shower and I'll hate standing in two inches of water tomorrow morning. I hate being resentful of everyone else in the world, it seems, sometimes. I hate that my back hurts chronically and constantly.

I'm so tired. I should not talk to anyone before I finish my lunch. Dinner. For today. Don't pay any attention to me, I'm sure I'll be a bit more cheerful about things tomorrow. If not, it should be a fun day for all my coworkers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I picked the wrong day to . . .keep not drinking.

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[info]k_rock wrote:
Nov. 13th, 2006 05:09 am (UTC)
I hate that all of this crappiness is surrounding you. I hate it. Bah.
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[info]worldforawhile wrote:
Nov. 15th, 2006 08:01 am (UTC)
Bah indeed. I'd like a do-over on the last four years, that would be great. Oh, and I'm sorry I missed your call today, but I left my new awesome phone at home. Where it was less awesome.
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[info]skyblade wrote:
Nov. 13th, 2006 05:24 am (UTC)
I've certainly felt like certain years were ebating up on me. i'm still not 100% out of it. I can't promise it gets better, but you tend sort of be like a tree...your roots wrap around the rocky terrain. You become stronger because of your hardships.
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[info]worldforawhile wrote:
Nov. 15th, 2006 08:02 am (UTC)
I'm strong enough! Strong enough! But yeah, you're right. I guess I've never felt like I was having a really bad year during the year itself before--I've always just looked back and thought, man, that year blew. But this year blows actively in the present!
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[info]moony wrote:
Nov. 13th, 2006 05:45 am (UTC)
Wah.

*long-distance empathy and a big hug*

Trite, I know, but unfortunately I am too far away for a long, real one. :(

(And tell your parents I'm thinking of them.)
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[info]worldforawhile wrote:
Nov. 15th, 2006 08:03 am (UTC)
Thank you! And I will tell them. I meant to today, but I forgot.
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[info]sunshine95 wrote:
Nov. 13th, 2006 06:13 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry, hon. Hope things get better soon. *hugs*
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[info]worldforawhile wrote:
Nov. 15th, 2006 08:03 am (UTC)
Thanks. That helps, it really does.
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[info]bitchygurl wrote:
Nov. 13th, 2006 03:17 pm (UTC)
oh hon, i'm sorry. i had a similar breakdown last night (my general rallying cry? mallrats willem's shout: When, lord? When the hell do I get to see the goddamn sailboat? -- "lord" part optional, but it has a nice flow to it) -- can you take a day and get away from everyone? maybe go to a Dave & Busters and shoot things? i've found that to be cathartic.

it will get better. it may take a little while, but it will. you just need to believe that.
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[info]worldforawhile wrote:
Nov. 15th, 2006 08:04 am (UTC)
When do I get the sailboat, indeed! Seriously, sailboat. I'll try that shooting things technique. Because usually I go the "eating things" route, and well. . .that never ends happily.
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[info]komalow wrote:
Nov. 13th, 2006 05:14 pm (UTC)
That song always makes me so miserable, but it's perfect.

Anyway. I'm sorry things suck. I don't know what else to say, but I'm sorry, because it's not fun or happy for you right now and it should be.
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[info]worldforawhile wrote:
Nov. 15th, 2006 08:05 am (UTC)
It was years after the album came out that I realized how much I loved that song. And I feel a little embarrasingly emo about how true it rings sometimes.

And thank you! It cheers me up just that you think things should be fun and happy for me.
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